Hypnosis and It’s benefits for Cancer and Illness
On the year before my 40th birthday I found myself in a great deal of pain and constant bleeding. What was meant to be a week was going on for months, which lead me to an appointment with my doctor. I had not seen a doctor in many years. After the exam he said I needed to wrap my thoughts around having surgery as soon as possible. I said what are you doing tomorrow? That got a laugh from him. I was sent to another doctor who just vaguely mentioned cancer. Tumors of unknown origins were found to be the cause of the pain, and were sending false signals to my body telling it to bleed, everything in my life began to change. The prognosis was not good. I was told that the tumors had to be removed. That it had spread throughout and was growing rapidly. Unfortunately the only way they could remove it was to perform a hysterectomy. The doctor said I had about two years to live otherwise. Well, that was a lot to accept. And I couldn’t accept it. I had a life to live and I new this was not Gods plan. I was young, yet suddenly my life was nearly over. I felt that I probably wouldn’t live through that surgery and if I did that I would die of depression anyway. There had to be another way! They did some testing and I was scheduled for my hysterectomy.
I was alone in my hospital room in the evening after being told that a tumor was growing in my body. My heart was open and I was feeling the beauty of the little lights twinkling out my window and appreciating the flowers that filled my room, and I knew that I was not alone. I knew then that I wanted to live and to heal my life. To heal all the pain that had brought me to this point. In the stillness of that moment, an inner voice told me that I was going to be okay, that I had important work to do…and to let it begin now. This message became the foundation for my faith.
After the surgery, the doctor said Kemo and Radiation is a must to live. I said no to the doctor and without even realizing what I was doing. I went straight toward my inner mind, body and spirit to speed my healing. I became a spiritual warrior on a quest to heal my life. I felt that the pain and anger I carried in my heart had created this illness. I knew that I had to learn to love myself in a much greater way and to forgive myself and all others. I had a lot of spiritual support around me and my faith was strong. I asked that I be guided to the highest healing places for me and that I be allowed to live and to heal my life, so that I might be a living example of God’s great healing energy. And I was guided. I worked with some remarkable healers that helped me to gain a better understanding about illness and healing and about myself.
It was during this time I was guided to Hypnotherapy with a friend of mine, this time it was for my healing. With its gentle and powerful processes I was able to get to the heart of the matter quickly, which is what I needed. It helped me clear away the misperceptions that I carried about myself and others that caused me pain and suffering. It was a pathway that showed me how to love myself as I recovered and discovered lost parts of my Self, including the deepest and most divine places within me. Because I was in great need of healing, I was willing to do whatever it took to find a way to heal.
My biggest single breakthrough happened on a beautiful spring day. I remember how the colors and the fresh air and the beauty touched my awareness. Every breath I took was filled with gratitude, just for being alive and somehow knowing I was being guided. That day with hypnosis I was gently guided on a journey inside my body to meet that part of my body that had stored this illness. I was surprised to find a dark mass of black goop there. This moved me to tears because my image of the cancer was not what I expected. I had actually found a mass that fit my thoughts and image of the cancer, it was heavy and filled with anger and I ceremoniously smashed that mass to smithereens with a sledgehammer, demanding the cancer to leave my body.
When I met this dark mass something very different was evoked within me. I knew I was making progress, this was a much different and better image. My hypnotist guided me to speak with this mass that represented the tumor. To ask whatever questions I wanted to ask. The first question I asked was “Why did you come here?” The reply was, “I was asked to come here.” By whom? “By You. The young women you once were, Listen, she is here.” The little girl I met that day was frightened, lonely and indeed, abandoned. She was terribly frightened in so many ways; There was fear of abuse and abandonment, fear of others’ anger, and fear that she really didn’t deserve to be loved. I was so deeply moved by this child part of myself. How long she had been neglected? As I talked with her and tried to win her trust, I asked her how I could help. She said she wanted to be free…free to be herself and express love and joy as much as she could. But there had been so much fear and pain and anger that she didn’t know whether she could stand to live any longer. I found a strength and power within me that made a bold rescue of the little girl, and I made a vow to give her all the love, freedom, attention and healing that she needed. She was no longer abandoned and alone. I had recovered a part of myself that was essential to my healing.
Together we returned to speak with the tumor and I asked the dark black mass what is your name?” the reply was: “Anger.” This made me cry because that was the feeling I had when the doctor told me my fate, strong Anger. I asked, “Why did you come to me in this way?” The response changed my awareness forever. “I came to help you. You were needing to make important changes in your life that you were afraid to make on your own. I heard your call for help.” The dark mass tumor had come to help me! I cried as I came to realize and accept that this illness was here to teach me and to help me.
I made friends with the tumor that day and I made a connection with my inner child. These experiences changed the course of my life. From that moment on I wholeheartedly listened to the wisdom of the illness and I embraced my inner child. By loving her I have learned to love all of my Self, deeply, gently, with compassion and kindness and to release the past and to forgive those whom I had harbored such anger. I had found at last the inner strength and spiritual resources needed to make the necessary changes. Answers came from within me and I learned to trust myself and believe in myself. I made many changes in my life over those years.
*****2 years later the cancer was still completely gone. It has now been eighteen years since that day in the doctors office. My cancer remains in “remission”. More importantly, to this day that little girl is an integral part of my life and her new happiness fills my life with joy. So if I have left you with nothing else it would be ………….YOU CAN HEAL YOUR LIFE………..Have faith in yourself and your God given right to heal yourself.Hypnosis and It’s benefits for Cancer and Illness has been a life changing event in my life.